I'm
still trying to get used to the fact that MOTIVATION MONDAYS are completely
different now that the chat show that I was a part of is now on hiatus. But, I've always been the kind of person to
roll with the punches, and I've faced down dozens of challenges before and come
out the other side.
Well,
I've decided that for this edition of MOTIVATION MONDAY, I'm going to motivate all
of you to do something. And this is
based on an event that I had to deal with recently, and unfortunately is
something that I still have to put up with years later.
My advice to everybody reading this blog entry for today is simple. Don't let hatred and grudges destroy your life. You can choose not to like someone. You can choose to cut toxic people out of your life, even. But eventually most people move on from that and go on with their lives to achieve greatness. I'll be the first one to admit that I had difficulty moving on from some of the nastiness that I had to endure when I was younger, but I'm well on my way to becoming a better person.
And do you want to know why? Because I don't hold grudges. I don't let hate take over my life. And, I think I'm better for it.
That being said, I'm absolutely amazed by the number of people who continue to hold grudges and abuse people some one, five, even ten years after something happened. And up until the last few days, I didn't have an answer as to why grown adults would choose to hold onto feuds and grudges for so long.
My advice to everybody reading this blog entry for today is simple. Don't let hatred and grudges destroy your life. You can choose not to like someone. You can choose to cut toxic people out of your life, even. But eventually most people move on from that and go on with their lives to achieve greatness. I'll be the first one to admit that I had difficulty moving on from some of the nastiness that I had to endure when I was younger, but I'm well on my way to becoming a better person.
And do you want to know why? Because I don't hold grudges. I don't let hate take over my life. And, I think I'm better for it.
That being said, I'm absolutely amazed by the number of people who continue to hold grudges and abuse people some one, five, even ten years after something happened. And up until the last few days, I didn't have an answer as to why grown adults would choose to hold onto feuds and grudges for so long.
I
now have my answer. And, I'll share
that revelation a little bit later on in this piece. But, in the meantime, I'm sure you want to know exactly what
happened that inspired this entry. In
order to set up the story, we ironically enough have to go back in time
thirteen years ago to the summer of 2001.
I even remember the exact date it all began, my memory is that good. Saturday, July 28, 2001.
I even remember the exact date it all began, my memory is that good. Saturday, July 28, 2001.
That
was the day that I joined an Internet community called "Yesterdayland" under the screenname
of jugheadjones12 (The screenname is my favourite comic character as
well as the age I was when I dressed as him for Halloween). It was a website that was dedicated to
childhood memories and focused on toys, television, fashion trends, movies,
music, and arcade games of the past. In
fact, I have to tell you that this website was a huge influence in my decision
to make this particular blog pop culture themed.
But
that really wasn't the only influence that the site had on me.
I
joined Yesterdayland during a very vulnerable time in my life. The spring and summer of 2001 was a rough
time. My grandfather died of a stroke,
I missed getting back into my program in university by a tenth of a percentage
point, and all of the friends that I had made during that year of university
had all gone their separate ways, and I had lost contact with all of them. So, when I say that I was feeling a little
bit alone and unsure of what I was going to do, I meant it. I just needed somewhere where I could talk
to people. I needed a place where I
could be myself. I needed a distraction.
Yesterdayland was that distraction.
I
joined that summer, and immediately made a lot of connections (many of which I
still have some thirteen years later).
I know some people look at Internet forums as being nothing special, and
many see them as being incredibly outdated with dozens of social networking
options available. But for me (and I'm
sure many people from Yesterdayland can vouch for this), it was a real bonding
experience. Many of us became friends
both on and offline. There were Christmas
card exchanges. We had Secret Cupid
games going on. Some members even fell
in love with each other, got married, and started families. For many of us, we held Yesterdayland in
such high regard that when the site imploded almost two years after I joined,
it was a really sad experience. The
place where all of us had bonded was no more, and we were all left wondering
what was next.
And,
unfortunately, right around the time that Yesterdayland folded was the time in
which some of us saw the true colours of some of the members on the site...and
they weren't pretty.
You've
likely seen the words "troll" or "flamer" posted on
Internet message boards. It's a term
used for people who knowingly go onto online communities to manipulate people
into turning on other users, or who post controversial links or images that are
designed to cause a riot, or who plainly insult other posters in plain sight
while hiding behind a keyboard. Most of
the trolls are pretty harmless and can easily be ignored...but weeks before
Yesterdayland went offline, the trolls had taken over the boards, and many
people decided to create "refugee" boards, so to speak, to get away
from the disaster. I and several other
people found ourselves as members of a group called "Memory
Lane", and
for a few weeks, it was nice. It wasn't
as fancy as Yesterdayland was, but it was enough.
At
least that was the case until some people decided to confess on "Memory
Lane" that they purposely decided to become trolls in an effort to show
the owners of Yesterdayland exactly what they thought of them. And that angered a lot of people, including
myself. Granted, the owners of
Yesterdayland basically abandoned the site in the last few months of its life,
but why would they have thought that posing as trolls to stick it to them was
an appropriate solution? I had been
personally attacked by some of those troll names, so it really felt like a
betrayal of sorts. And, I'm sure that
I'm not the only one who felt that way.
Long story short, those people either were kicked off of "Memory Lane", or left on their own accord, and started up a third site (complicated to follow along with, huh). And their site was much more private, blocking everybody out who wasn't a part of their group - which was fine by me, as after their little moment of confession, I really didn't want anything to do with them anyway. By that time, the Yesterdayland crew had gotten things together and started up a brand new site dedicated to pop culture.
Enter
Retroland - a site that was founded in 2005.
I became a member in December of that year, and it was amazing just how
much it was like Yesterdayland. I
thought that for one brief, shining moment that we could recreate the
Yesterdayland site with Retroland and have everything go back to the way it
was.
Of
course, a lot of feelings had been hurt in between those two years, and some of
those feelings were still raw. And
before we knew it, the people from "Memory Lane" were clashing with
the people who had started up the secret third site, causing all sorts of
tension and stress on the boards. By
then, I was tired of seeing people insulting each other and using
passive-aggressive behaviour to try and make others feel inferior or outcast. And, anyone who knows me knows that I can't
stand passive-aggressive behaviour.
Perhaps
that's what made me decide to take on a job as moderator of Retroland, which
was simultaneously the dumbest, but smartest move I ever made. I loved the site, and I wanted to be a part
of it in some manner, and when given the opportunity, I took it thinking that
it would be a great experience.
And, there were definite pros to the gig. It helped me deal with conflict resolution a lot better, and it helped me become a better judge of character (and to see exactly when people were telling me the truth, or lying to my face. Trust me, it's a handy skill to have in life).
And, there were definite pros to the gig. It helped me deal with conflict resolution a lot better, and it helped me become a better judge of character (and to see exactly when people were telling me the truth, or lying to my face. Trust me, it's a handy skill to have in life).
However,
the minute I became a moderator, the majority of people from the group that
deserted "Memory Lane" seemed to make it their personal mission to
make my job incredibly difficult. They
hurled insults at me, used passive-aggressive behaviour to poke fun at myself,
my friends, and my family, and they did everything in their power to test my
patience. It never worked though. As much as it killed me to not hit ignore on
all of them (as a moderator, you have to watch every single comment, no matter
how much they hurt), I did the job to the best of my ability. And, I kept my cool during the whole
process. I only ever remember losing my
temper with one member, and even so, it was kept off the boards, and I didn't
even get that upset. I believed in
moderating behind the scenes, because the last thing I wanted was to add fuel
to the flamers...so to speak.
But
after a year of moderating Retroland, I resigned from the position. But it wasn't because of the group who kept
attacking me on the site. I wouldn't
give them the satisfaction - and besides, they weren't much of a threat
anyway. I resigned because once again
the owners of the site abandoned ship, and didn't give me the tools necessary
to do my job as a moderator. And if you
don't have the ability to delete obnoxious posts or shut down accounts of
people who knowingly cause trouble, then there really was no point in sticking
around. And shortly after I left
Retroland, the site was revamped, and the message board community was
permanently disabled. It was a sad
thing to see, but at the same time, I understood why it was necessary.
So,
here we are. Six years after I resigned
as Retroland moderator. Since that
time, I've started up a blog, done a few charity events, am working a full-time
job, and I've moved on from the whole experience. The friends that I made from Yesterdayland, "Memory
Lane", and Retroland are still friends today, and believe me when I say
that they know who they are, and I love them for being who they are. You guys will always have my friendship, and
I will always have your back, no matter what.
And no matter where life takes us, we will always be a true
Yesterdayland family, just as my co-workers are my workplace family, and so on
and so forth.
Now
here's where the epilogue comes into play.
Unfortunately with the cases of some of my friends from
Yesterdayland/Retroland, I can't choose who they are friends with. Some of my friends are pals with some of the
people who caused so much tension and hostility on "Yesterdayland",
"Memory Lane", and "Retroland", and that's cool. I'm sure that I'm friends with some people
that some of my friends don't like. All
you do is avoid that person. Case
closed.
Well, imagine my surprise when I responded to a post that a friend posted on her own wall on Facebook, and underneath my response, someone had posted a reply that passive-aggressively attacked me and my blog. Although she didn't mention me by name, I recognized the name as being one of the people who purposely caused trouble on the site, and was one of the group that isolated themselves from "Memory Lane" all those years ago. There she was, attacking me...years after my moderating gig on Retroland. And, would you like to know something? I honestly don't even remember doing anything to her at all. If I did, I completely forgot about it because the experience that I had on those sites were in the past and I had moved on from it. Therefore, I found it a little bit sad that she obviously still held a grudge and didn't even have the courage to explain why.
Well, imagine my surprise when I responded to a post that a friend posted on her own wall on Facebook, and underneath my response, someone had posted a reply that passive-aggressively attacked me and my blog. Although she didn't mention me by name, I recognized the name as being one of the people who purposely caused trouble on the site, and was one of the group that isolated themselves from "Memory Lane" all those years ago. There she was, attacking me...years after my moderating gig on Retroland. And, would you like to know something? I honestly don't even remember doing anything to her at all. If I did, I completely forgot about it because the experience that I had on those sites were in the past and I had moved on from it. Therefore, I found it a little bit sad that she obviously still held a grudge and didn't even have the courage to explain why.
In
short, she is a coward. In fact, that's
all that her group was. A cowardly
group of grown adults who attack and put down people to make themselves feel
better.
And, I decided to record a video message to these people to close the book once and for all. Even though I've blocked most of them on social media and they won't be able to see it here...I'm convinced that they're going to find a way to see it anyway. Because unlike them, I have no problem telling it like it is.
And, I decided to record a video message to these people to close the book once and for all. Even though I've blocked most of them on social media and they won't be able to see it here...I'm convinced that they're going to find a way to see it anyway. Because unlike them, I have no problem telling it like it is.
So,
here they are. My final thoughts.
Matt, I am curious, before Yesterdayland.com shut down in 2003, how many people were Registered Members of the site, myself and others think Yesterdayland should return with the same look and feel that it had before it shut down, with the working Messageboards and everything, what is being done to bring back Yesterdayland and "Memory Lane" both were great websites... You can e-mail me at
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